Friday, June 7, 2013

Still Trying

FRIDAY, JUNE 7, 2013

Still trying...

What can I say about "neglecting" this blog???  I would click onto it at different times and since the last serious writing had to do with my mom and dying, I guess I didn't want to stay long.  Time passed and here I am two years later.

Lots has happened and nothing has happened.  Life and time passing.

Still no gray hair---though I have aged.  I know this because I am not "jumping" out of bed in the morning!  In fact, my sleep pattern has become so screwed up.  I often pull an all nighter (no sleeping) and it is frustrating.  What I wouldn't have given to have all this time to finish stuff I needed to get the past.  Or the energy I have as I check the clock for the uptennth time.  I could have used it when I worked third shift and "slept when the baby slept"  That "baby is now fifty years old---has a "baby" of her own that is soon to be a sophomore at UCSB....  .  Oh---the hair---best color specialist in the area every 7 weeks!

Still going to lose that weight...When I have occasion to have lunch with my daughters they always say, " eat like a bird.  Aren't you going to finish?'  The "bird" must be eating during those sleepless nights---and indeed---loving the "Haagen Das ice cream bars!

Still trying to exercise. Trying to walk---exercise by ANY NAME... but the back limits me.  My doctor has a solution for the back.  Begin exercising with a plastic tube that you roll on---especially the areas that hurt.  Each time I visit him he asks if I have begun doing.  I told him that he could write down "patient non complying" as even if I could lower myself to the tube---there is no way I could roll on anything!  That includes rolling to a chair to help me get up.  I know he has not given up on me, for I used to say the same, non compliant answer, regarding smoking.

Still going to paint that masterpiece.  I do believe I still have plenty of time left to accomplish this !  Grandma Moses was well into her eighties when she BEGAN to paint.  Since I have been painting most of my life---  I think I still have a shot.!

Still going to make a "bucket list".  No, not really---no intention to make any list.  My little act of rebellion, as everyone else is doing that...

and lastly---still going to try harder to be a better wife, friend, daughter, sister, mother, teacher, grandma, person,---

Oh---and write on my blog!!!


last minute stamper said...

I love you just the way you are!

last minute stamper said...

I love you just the way you are.