What can I say about "neglecting" this blog??? I would click onto it at different times and since the last serious writing had to do with my mom and dying, I guess I didn't want to stay long. Time passed and here I am two years later.
Lots has happened and nothing has happened. Life and time passing.
Still no gray hair---though I have aged. I know this because I am not "jumping" out of bed in the morning! In fact, my sleep pattern has become so screwed up. I often pull an all nighter (no sleeping) and it is frustrating. What I wouldn't have given to have all this time to finish stuff I needed to get done.in the past. Or the energy I have as I check the clock for the uptennth time. I could have used it when I worked third shift and "slept when the baby slept" That "baby is now fifty years old---has a "baby" of her own that is soon to be a sophomore at UCSB.... . Oh---the hair---best color specialist in the area every 7 weeks!
Still going to lose that weight...When I have occasion to have lunch with my daughters they always say, "...you eat like a bird. Aren't you going to finish?' The "bird" must be eating during those sleepless nights---and indeed---loving the "Haagen Das ice cream bars!
Still trying to exercise. Trying to walk---exercise by ANY NAME... but the back limits me. My doctor has a solution for the back. Begin exercising with a plastic tube that you roll on---especially the areas that hurt. Each time I visit him he asks if I have begun doing. I told him that he could write down "patient non complying" as even if I could lower myself to the tube---there is no way I could roll on anything! That includes rolling to a chair to help me get up. I know he has not given up on me, for I used to say the same, non compliant answer, regarding smoking.
Still going to paint that masterpiece. I do believe I still have plenty of time left to accomplish this ! Grandma Moses was well into her eighties when she BEGAN to paint. Since I have been painting most of my life--- I think I still have a shot.!
Still going to make a "bucket list". No, not really---no intention to make any list. My little act of rebellion, as everyone else is doing that...
and lastly---still going to try harder to be a better wife, friend, daughter, sister, mother, teacher, grandma, person,---
Gemini is symbolized by the Twins. You're flexible, flirty and inventive. Intelligent to the extreme, your idea of a good time is a lively conversation -- or better yet, a friendly debate. Thanks to the Twins' influence, you sometimes feel split in two directions and don't know what to do!
I am a teacher and an artist. A nurse and mother. A storyteller and spiritual being. I am wife and a friend. I am a journal keeper determined to record my celebrations, my loves, my losses. I am a traveler, but not alone. I am learning to trust and believe and I know I will find that which I have been searching for all of my life--- I am a poet and a dreamer. I am a grandmother and a therapist. I dance, I sing and I am a child of God's.